London, England...

Hi!!!

So, I've been in London for over 2 weeks now... kind of odd, I know... very exciting though... So, I'll speak more about all of this later...

For now, I'm off to bed.

Goodnight!!

and good afternoon Californians...

G

The sweetest man in the world... and he's mine!!

So, here are snip-bits of an email from my wonderful boyfriend... I hope he doesn't get too embarrassed... Then again, he's the only one that reads this blog (I think)...

I love you Ryan!!!!!!!!!!

Griselda,

Seeing you today was like the first light upon the horizon in the earliest of morning. Your beauty is like the light, radiating forth and cutting through the darkness that is my emptiness without you. For those few moments, you were closer, closer than you had been when we were just emailing, or IMing, or even speaking. There you were, just as pretty, funny, wonderful and amazing as I remember. Im sorry if I was a bit quite earlier, perhaps I couldn't quite find the words to describe how I felt.

I Love You, perhaps one day I'll find the words to explain it to is full extent.


T - Tentative - There are a lot of big decisions coming up, i.e. graduate schools, moving, testing, amonst other less looming, but nevertheless important. It's important to move ahead, not slowly, but cautiously, and more so, always forward. We will need to make many of these decisions together, and I look forward to preparing our futures to become our future.


W - Wishful - When you wish upon a star...Well I know what I'd wish for...and what if I wish upon an interstellar collision with a meteor...does that count as double?


Z - Zeal - Defined as "ardor: a feeling of strong eagerness (usually in favor of a person or cause)" I think you understand the 'person' ascribed in the definition. You are the most amazing woman I have ever known. You continue to fascinate and scintillate. I love you so much, and am so completely head over heels in love with you.

I love you, now and in the future, 4everNAlways

Ryan

One month to live...

If you only had only one month left to live starting right now, what would you do during that month and why?

If I only had one month to live, I would try to do budget my time accordingly in order to efficiently do everything I want to have done. I would spend the first few days trying to get my affairs in order, both at school with my coursework and clubs, and in my personal life, notifying people of my upcoming death and trying to assimilate this news myself.
Overall, I would spend more time with my parents, showing them how much I really care about them. I would also spend time with my stepbrother and his family, and make sure his children do not forget how much I love them. I would probably spend the most amount of time with my boyfriend, enjoying every day we have together. But also trying to prepare him for my death, ensuring that he lives a prosperous life, and will not dwell on my death so much as to ruin his future.
Then, I would drive to Las Vegas with my boyfriend and my parents, to tell my aunt and cousins the news. We would only stay there for a weekend and take many pictures together, so that they can remember me at this age, and not only the memories they have of me as a child. Since I would not be able to travel to Argentina and Paraguay to visit the rest of my family and friends, I would spend a few hours talking to them on the phone. I would update them on the recent things going on in my life, so they would realize how happy I am at this point in my life, and that I have no regrets. I would also call my best friend that lives in Israel, whom I have known since I was 3 years old. During any free moments that other friends have, I would spend with them. Since they are the people I have the most fun with, I would enjoy being in their company and forgetting the bad news.

Crazy, I am

Hello! It's been a while since I've posted, I know...

I've been so... like, obsessive lately... I really don't know how Ryan has so much patience for me... I have a feeling he's getting tired of it too... Like, ok, what's up this time, kind of thing... I really don't know... like, everything's great... except I know I'm leaving soon, and want to spend like every waking moment with him... which is not possible. And, in his defense, I never go right out and say, hey babe, I want to see you today, how can we make that possible. I beat around the bush and say it... which gets old fast. But I know I can't be so selfish all the time, you know... that I need to understand that he has a life too, and it can't all revolve around me... But, I guess it's something I'll have to work on...

In any case... life is great. I'm so in love with Ryan... it's totally crazy :) crazy in love that is... it's scary though, how much you can love someone, you know... so different in any case. But I'm loving going through it, especially with such a great guy as he is... I'm glad he learns to put up with me :)
not like I'm that bad, I'd like to think... but we all have our moments... and I think I give him way too hard a time... way too mean to him than I'd care to be... but that's something I'm trying to amend.. I always end up hurting those that are so close to me... at least that's what my folks say...... that i'm a bit ungrateful with them... it goes back to them bc i am a bit ungrateful to them, and don't want to do the same in my relationship with ryan....

then again, i talk too much... and analyze things so much they no longer make sense, not even to me...

so june 16 is D-day.. d day I leave, that is... to mysterious London... no idea what that'll be like for me.... Europe!! incredible.... I hope I get to enjoy every moment of it... even though I'll be totally homesick... at least ryansick... kind of an odd way of putting it, since I have yet to get sick of Ryan...

oh, and in August I get to go to Florida with Ryan :) yeeeeeeeeeyyyy... for a week :)
I have yet to inform my parents... though i've known for over a month.... I'm so bad... think I'm getting worse, too....
I'm 22... I should be more mature and stronger... right?

haha :)

anyway, enough delirious g for one day...


byyyyeeeeeeeee

Phone Scoop

For Elizabeth:
Phone Scoop

Blackberry=Ryan's choice

Sunday night...

Hi!
So, it's 10:27pm, and I'm really tired. I have a headache, bc I'm tired I think. But I haven't worked on my budget... plus the whole day light saving time thing... plus I wanna talk to Ryan... gosh I'm so spoiled and selfish... oh well :P

went to the museum of tolerance today. So sad, and just, horrifying I guess... it's just really hard to comprehend, you know? And I feel like this could happen again, and what could I do about it, you know, I feel so powerless. Like those dreams where you're screaming but no sound comes out, and no one can hear you... maybe that's just my dreams (some of them, anyways)...

And tomorrow commences week 2 of the beautiful quarter system... ah...

anyway, got a real sweet email from ryan this morning... he's so sweet :) I love him so much :) I miss him... haha, but I saw him last night... oh well, that's the way it is, I guess... I can't imagine how much I'll miss him when in London. I'm glad it's only for 2 months, and not longer :) Still, it's a long time...

In other thoughts... I need to go visit Eka (who hasn't responded my two calls... probably cuz I've fallen off of the face of the Earth lately)... and I need to go visit Abel and Laura... and email people from argentina... and call Eli... it's been a year since she's left... And of course, parts of me think... and again, in a year, I'll be who knows where, making new friends... but I know that there are some friends (I hope) will never be lost... then again, I think this every time, and is never true... except Caroli...

Anyway, budget info:

Flight: $100 (per person, Jet Blue)
Car rental: $300 (Enterprise/Dollar/Thrifty http://comparisontravel.com/Untitled/Under25/under_25.htm)
Food (3 days): $100 (per person)
Hotel stay: $200 (per person)
Gas: $50

Total: $700/person + $50 gas= $750 (1 person), or $1450 (2 people)

anyway, I'm dying.. off to sleep...

It's a fraud I tell you...

Hi...
so it's me again... not only am I uninspired, but I'm totally scared shitless... well, more unmotivated than anything else... Like, how am I going to get into graduate school? How!? Which makes it hard to write an essay about how convinced I am on going to grad school...

Haha, I'm sure anyone that knows me and reads this might think I'm silly... But, I dunno... Lately I've been so lazy and stuff... and like, I have no idea what I'd like to research. Maybe I should just go to industry and screw school... but its like I have my mind set on this grad school thing...
(ok, this link is weird: http://www.propeller-island.com/rooms_neu/room_detail/15/index.php ) [no, I'm not distracted easily, why do you ask?... oh, the paper I'm supposed to be writing, right! Oh, it's 4:43pm... oh... well that means Ryan'll be off of work soon... Oh, right, it's 4:43pm and I haven't written anything... I should feel guilty, right? No? Oh, I should just write and stop being delirious... ok!]

Describe the field of study in which you would like to pursue a doctoral degree and the research questions or theoretical perspectives that interest you in this field. Please be specific.

Um...
Biochemistry, Molecular and Cell Biology.
Why?

At the cellular level, the molecular aspects of the proteins and other
components are important, but also the interaction of all of these elements
gives the cell its unique characteristics.
If a protein is acting incorrectly, or is not working, one can look at
the genetic level to see if there is a mutation. One can also look at the
cellular level and see what other proteins are involved which might have
produced the negative effect on the questioned protein. Diseases, such as cystic
fibrosis, are caused by a malfunction in a membrane protein caused by a mutation
of that protein. By understanding more about how these proteins work, one can
propose a way to alter them at some level and allow them to work, or one can
diagnose a genetic problem early enough to propose some kind of gene therapy.
These proposals are still being tested, hence the importance of vertebrate
models. The success in such models, and a homology in such problem at the human level, can help construct therapies that will help many people with genetic
diseases and predispositions.

As a scientist, I am interested in understanding all the aspects that
make these processes work. First at the cellular level, the interactions between
molecules, and how they activate each other successively, resulting in a product
or process that is highly regulated, but I am also interested in the biochemical
reasons for such occurrences. If a protein isn’t transcribed, and one can
attribute it to a hindrance in the translational or transcriptional machinery,
therefore relating the chemistry of the reaction to the actual biological
process, then we have more knowledge and viewpoints that will help in solving
the problem. Therefore, by relating the molecular and biochemical components to the impact at the cellular level, one can further understand biological processes in depth. Thus, as a scientist I am deeply interested in different ways and
levels of comprehending biological development.

Ok, so I have to be more specific... Or I should anyways, plus I just did cut and paste from old essays..

Oh well... I'll stop blogging now....

G

A fraud

Grichu's world...

Hi!

So, It's Cesar Chavez day (aka: no classes!!!! yeeyyy)..... So here I am, at home, with 3 essays I need to write :P

But I am happy. Just did this video kick boxing workout thing that Melissa gave me like forever ago. But it was cool, I feel energized... and really really hungry :P

So, I'll take a shower, make some lunch, put some music and write my essays :)

Recap on my spring break... For the first parts of it I was a lab rat :) Did a whole bunch of experiments, which went well, except that the primers were screwed up, so we don't have a stop codon... so I'll need to start up again on mon, with new primers and stuff.

Last Thursday night (a week ago, sigh...) we went to the river with Ryan :) Jade and Bobby went on Friday night... We had a blast! Played a ton of games (ie: Cranium, Taboo, Life, Stare, Rummikub, etc)... and we had a bbq, and made a huge breakfast on Sun morning... Plus, Ryan and I ranked states for grad school... Mass. being #1 (and Boston being the most expensive place in the country, so we hear)... Overall it was really nice, though kind of sad, cuz Ryan's dad sold the place...

In other news, I'm going to London over the summer to do research :) So much fun!!!! It'll be my first time in Europe!!! So exciting! Kind of sad though, too... 2 months away from Ryan :( Hurray for the internet, though... But there's like 8hours difference :(

And the quarter's started again :P At least Zoo is over!!

And on Tues, March 29th, Ryan and I went to IHOP, just like we did a year prior to that (as you can see in the blog... the first time we hung out, talked and had coffee..... but I actually ate this time!!)

Anyway, off to do all the stuff I've set out to do!!!


Byes,

G

Hi again... so I should be sleeping, or studying, or something in between. But I have somewhat of a headache, due to broomball... and now that the ibuprofen is wearing off,not so fun.... So let me list all that i need to get done this week.
I have to finish my take-home quiz by tomorrow at 2pm, choose a topic for my 10 page paper for me universe class, finish reading all the chapters for the universe class, do an outline for my midterm in my universe class, finish the take-home quiz for biochem lab by thursday, do the graphs by thursday, finish recopying my lab notes, make a copy of the lectures for aimee and nicole, fill out the fafsa by tuesday, pay my golden key dues, find out when the ceremony ends for that, go to lab at 6pm tomorrow and run an experiment, go back in on tuesday and see if anything turned out, make a survey for the honors program club general meeting, help out with the general meeting, figure out what's going on with hillel on tuesday, pick up the stuff from laura's, order the pictures online, say by to mom (she's leaving on thursday for 2 weeks), um... that's about it... hahaha... :)

Anyway, so it's been a crazy weekend... and I am so grateful to love the most wonderful guy ever, he's so sweet and cute, and awesome... and he is also going to read this I'm sure... Yeah, so he came over and cooked dinner for me and my parents today... which was awesome. he's great. Plus, I've been so stressed out and impatient, and who knows what else, lately... since late last week. I've just got so much on my mind, and on in my life right now, that I just dunno... I've been weird, and snappy (that's the word!) lately... But it was nice to spend some quiet time with my bf today, felt loved and happy.. both really nice feelings... So I think I'm going to go to sleep now, and hopefully th broomball pains will have diminished by tomorrow... :)

Byes,

G

so my parents, no, let me rephrase that... my step-father is ridiculous.... It's new years day... which usually is the worst day of the year for me... yet this year things were different... Why, you ask? Well, first of all because I have a great boyfriend... so new years eve was nice, with him, and family... though my family was all weird and awkward... but I enjoyed myself... and today, I went to my bf house at like noon... we hung out and watched the rose parade... and watched the matrix, part II (reloaded)... and then his brother and his girlfriend came over... and they were cleaning up bc some friends of theirs were coming over... so we helped out and stayed for dinner as well... It was actually quite fun... and then we played Taboo... which was really fun... and then, everyone left, and being it 11pm, and after all my parent's drama last week, I decided to go too... even though I AM 21 and it is a SATURDAY NIGHT... 2 days before I start the freaking quarter again... which I might add is going to be a hell of a quarter... but instead of this vacation being a relaxing and fun vacation (though it had parts of that), it turned out to be a never ending battle with my folks... and I decided to partially give in... trying to be good to everyone, you know... my new years resolution was going to be just that, trying to please everyone....... but you see, why the fuck do that... if I get home at midnight on a sat night... from my bf's house.... after having called my parents like twice since I left my stupid home... i even called at 6:30pm letting my mom know that I was staying over for dinner over there, that some friend's of them were over, bla bla... Seriously! And then I come home, and they're actually awake, watching a movie... so I think, cool, I get to spend some time with them, and I got home before they went to bed... not bad.... and nooooo, my stepfather is like, you can have the phone you gave me back, I don't want it... bc, oh, surprise, he's pissed off bc I spent new years day with my boyfriend.... FORGET THAT I WAS ACTUALLY GONNA SPEND NEW YEARS EVE WITH MY BF, BUT CHANGED ALL THE PLANS SO THAT I COULD SPEND IT WITH MY FAMILY, BUT DID THEY CARE, OF COURSE NOT.... SO THEN I'M LIKE, THAT'S FINE... SO DECIDE TO SPEND NEW YEARS DAY WITH MY BF... AND I DON'T EVEN LEAVE AT A CRAZY HOUR IN THE MORNING (AS I PROBABLY WOULD HAVE DONE, EXCEPT I DON'T WANT MORE FREAKING DRAMA), SO I DON'T GET TO HIS HOUSE TIL ABOUT NOON.... WHERE THE ROSE PARADE HAS BEEN STREAMING THROUGH FOR THE SECOND TIME-AS A COPY OR WHATEVER-- SO BASICALLY THE THIRD TIME THEY'RE STREAMING IT.... AND WHAT WAS ALL I REALLY WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO TODAY? WATCHING THE ROSE PARADE WITH MY BF, AND BEING LAZY.... SO I COMPROMISED AND STILL GOT TO DO THAT... AND YET IT'S NOT ENOUGH, IT'S NEVER FREAKING ENOUGH... SO YOU KNOW WHAT MY NEW NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION IS? TO SAVE UP FAST AND ENOUGH TO LIVE ON MY OWN REAL SOON, BECAUSE I CAN'T STAND IT... BECAUSE THEY'VE PAST RATIONAL AND NOW ARE RIDICULOUS....
SO, YES, I'M A BIT MAD, AND SAD, AND DISAPPOINTED... BUT, YOU KNOW, I TRIED, I REALLY DID.... AND I JUST CAN'T ALWAYS BE THE ONE TO BE FLEXIBLE, THAT'S NOT HOW IT WORKS, NOT AT ALL....

SO HAPPY NEW YEAR...

So I'm laying on the floor in my room... on vacation (yeeey!)... after a very unproductive day. Unless you count the 3 hours I left my house to go get my oil changed and go to Ralph's to get stuff for dinner. And since I was buying I got my favorite vegies (vegis? whatever!). Namely: artichoke, watercress and green onion (or chives). So that's what we had for dinner...
It's sooo hard to get out of bed, and actually leave my house. Between emails and stupid internet stuff (like this spongebob game that's very addicting) and TV (ugh, the box that sucks you in) and just plain laziness. And my to do list is not getting any shorter...
hehehe, all is well though... unless you count the endless arguments with my wonderful parents, who forget I'm 21 and sometimes want to do my own thing... because, yes, I have a life, and expect to enjoy it... what an idea!
Yeah, so this weekend was fun = yeah, so this weekend was fun... And yes, I am having fun with the fonts and colors... why not use them? poor webdings is feeling apprecciated today (wow, cannot spell!!)
Anyway... now, without italics... hehe
This weekend was cool, we went to vegas with my wonderful boyfriend, and his two best friends... It was Ryan's best friend's 21st bday a couple of weeks ago, so it was a necessity (!)... :P But seriously, it was fun... Also got to see ocean's 12... really good.... and then had a lazy sunday, but one of those good lazy days, it was nice... Very exciting :)
anyway... so xmas is coming up, hanukkah is over... and I'm already having back-t0-school nightmares, hehe...

Ok, tired of writing now...
Tata!!

-yo

So today tears stream down my face... and of course, for the classic reason why they do so... I would say I hate them, but hate is such a harsh and permanent word. The only option that would make me happy, will probably devestate her... or maybe not, I dunno. I think we would all be better off... So I've got a lot of saving up to do... while keeping up my academics, and maybe then I'll have a fighting chance to some tranquility and guilt-free life.

Oh well... I guess no one's life is perfect, and my problems probably aren't that huge in the big picture... life goes on, right?

On the other hand, some awesome news... I got this research grant I was hoping for... which is really awesome, I'm very excited... Academically things are going so well for me, it's really very exciting...
I just wish my family life were going just as well... but you can't have it all, right?
I do have great friends and a wonderful boyfriend, which evens things out a bit, I think...

Oh well, hopefully next time I'll be more happy...

I must add that this Hanukkah was the best ever, thanks to my sweet babe, who went to a lot of trouble to make it special... I'm very grateful to have him in my life...

Anyway, tata for now...

-me

So here I am yet again... all excited... why?
1) I'm on winter break (yeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyy)
2) Just got all my grades: A's in everything this quarter, hehe, very happy!
3)Got my 7th hanukkah gift!!! Very exciting.. looks like I might have a permanent home for this blog.... All thanks to my wonderful and very sweet boyfriend :)
4) I found out my friend from Seattle is coming on vacation to Cali... with 6 friends, or 5, something like that... very cool!!!
5) I just came home from TGIF, we went out to dinner with the honors program club eboard... and then we went bowling... very fun!!

I want to have a get together with the people from school... like the eboard people, and my friends friends... We'll see I guess....

So yeah, Happy Hannukah!!! tonight is the 7th night, yuppiiiiieee...

Hello!
Here I am, on Veteran's day, taking it easy. Trying to get everything on my to do list done :P The quater's almost over, which is weird, but cool. I'm excited about winter break, and I hope it's fun, and I'll be able to see a lot of people that I don't get to see during school, plus have more time with Ryan...
Life is pretty good right now, have some projects and stuff for the future, so that's cool. School's going okay, my clubs are doing well, wish I had more time to dedicate to them, but oh well...
Anyway, I gotta go type up my personal statement....
:)

Hello!!
So, Yes, this blog is yet again unpublished... so sorry about that, I'll republish it again soon enough.
So I'm feeling like guilty right now... ugh, I hate when I get like this, it kind of sucks. But I feel like I've done things kind of wrong and it just eats me up inside. But I'm trying to work through it, and set goals or actions that I'll take to change the wrong doings.

Aside from that, all is well. Did well on all my midterms, which is cool :) Had an awesome weekend (a perfect weekend, just like my boyfriend intended it to be)... The river house is wonderful, awesome view and really well equiped. So I had a blast and was pampered and stuff, which is more than awesome. Plus I got to spend quality time with my bf which is soo important, more so now that school has started (and I'm way too busy for my own good). So I got to relax after a crazy week of midterms and post-midterm stress :P (even though no one believes me anymore when I'm truly worried about their outcome).

So, I tried to set-up my schedule for next quarter... seems like sleep is not a luxury I'll have, hehe... I haven't gone to the gym in I don't know how long... doubt I'll have time for that next quarter, but I'm working on fitting it in this quarter... now I just have to do it... (do it! do it!... have you seen Starsky and Hutch?)
Anyway, must go away and study...
I'll write more later on...

Byes
-moi

So, do you know me?

Take the "How well do you know me?" quiz created on Tickle and see how you score. Here's the first question:
1. What's my sign? * Aries * Libra * Capricorn * Taurus
Just click (or copy and paste) this link and you'll be taken to my quiz.http://connect.tickle.com/test.html?id=l5D6m8Y9yOgahzM3&
Griselda

This is what Tickle says about me, according to an inkblot test...

Griselda, your subconscious mind is driven most by Curiosity

This means you are full of questions about life, people, and the potential of your future. You spend more time than others envisioning the possibilities of your life — things that others are too afraid to consider.Your curiosity burns with an almost physical need to know and do more. It's only through new experiences that you feel a greater understanding of yourself or the world — which ultimately is the greatest way for you to feel satisfied. It is possible that the underlying reason for your drive towards curiosity is a deeply rooted fear of boredom. That means that you are probably more susceptible than others to feel like you're falling into a rut when life slows down into a comfortable routine. You need to make sure you have stimulation in your life — that makes you feel like you're innovating or being exposed to the ideas and experiences that truly inspire you. With such a strong orientation towards curiosity, you're also prone to a rebellious quality that shows up when you feel you are just going through the motions, and are unable to really influence the world around you. But interestingly enough, your drive towards novel experiences also indicates an openness others don't have, but wish they did. Unconsciously, your curiosity presses you to learn more, experience more, and get the most out of life.
Though your unconscious mind is driven most strongly by Curiosity, there is much more to who you are at your core

Yes, I should be studying and/or sleeping... so I'll do that now...

Lots of things have come up lately, but I'll talk about them at another time I guess...

G

So today I feel as though my future is at my fingertips... and it's kind of a scary thought... yet it shouldn't be, should it? I dunno, I just am afraid of hurting those I love most... Because I know that things... life gets complicated... and I just would like to not have to deal with issues that are just so hard... to think about and come to an agreement on... and yet I'm also so happy, and at peace and just... like overwhelmed with emotions and just amazed... and kind of lost in my present... which is a really weird way to put what I'm going through... cuz it's not that I'm lost, it's that I'm trying to figure out who the us is, basically who I am as a part of a relationship... wow, not making too much sense, am I?

This was a good weekend though... got to spend loads of time with my boyfriend and friends, and family kind of too... which is nice... and tomorrow, back to the craziness of school and trying to balance 2 clubs, school work, friends, sleep, bf time, another club, family, etc... :P But, life is good... no complaints :P Just wish time would stop every once in a while... or something along those lines... but I guess it's good that it doesn't...

Anyway... gotta get to bed soon so I can wake up and do some reading!

Tata for now...

me!

Hey!

So I've finally decided to publish my blog somewhere... What a courageous attempt!
Anyway... Classes start this Thursday, and they couldn't start soon enough! Plus... my wonderful boyfriend is coming back that day, from a business trip... I hope he brings me lots of pictures of Prague :) But, really, I just want him back :)
So, a couple of days to do everything I've procrastinated from doing since August 14...

Oh, Shana Tova Umetuka!! May you be inscribed in the book of life... I'm really sorry if I ever hurt your feelings or did anything wrong by you (this to whoever reads this... which my guess is only one person, but I could be wrong, non?)... A lot of repenting to be done, I assume, until Iom Kippur...

Feliz Dia de la Primavera!!!!!! o del otoño, para los del hemisferio norte :P

Besotes,

Yo

Hi!!!
It is September... what day escapes me, because I'm on my 5 week long couch-potatoe-fest... Not that I'm watching TV all day... I sometimes venture off into crazy California traffic, and drive 45 minutes to see the sweetest, most wonderful guy I know... who happens to be my boyfriend....
Oh well, a couple of more days and it'll be September 23, and the craziness in my life will ensue yet again...

(JTB!)

-Yo
(as in the Spanish "me", not like in slang "yo, how-ya doin'"...)