Griselda's Engaged!!!

Hello Blog world!

Here I am... as normal... slightly trying to be productive... realizing I have a heck of a lot of GRE studying to do if I am to do remotely well on it... and I have no idea where I'm going to apply to.

Ok, maybe that's a lie. I'll probably apply to Duke and UCSF... maybe UCLA, since they also have an umbrella program. Probably UMN, since I probably have the application fee waived... Anyway, I still need to choose some universities I can actually get into. I can probably get into UMN bc I did that one summer program there. Okay, okay, I can read the comments from my fiance now, how I shouldn't be worrying about getting in... But, I dunno... I do worry... Mostly bc I'm way behind in my applying and writing and studying and stuff... My GPA alone can't do all the work, but it would be nice if it could.

Anyway, so that's the same old news as always, I suppose.

Class starts up again on Thursday. Not really doing all the planning and stuff I should be doing. Surprise surprise.

Went to Olive Garden with Ryan and my parents, Ryan's treat... and it went well... I was so nervous, I don't think I really talked. I kept on playing with my knife and looking at my stepfather's spaced out look... so basically my mom and Ryan pulled the dinner through, and had a nice conversation... After the bill came... and left... we actually mentioned the true reason for the dinner... Ryan kind of apologized, which really surprised me... He's so sweet, he was composed for the both of us, I assume. And my stepfather congratulated us and actually smiled. Things are weird between us, though (Pedro and I)... and hopefully they'll be better soon. I guess it's both our faults... He said some mean things (I was ruining his life doing this) and I insinuated some mean things, which I tried to patch up a minute later, but still stung (that he's not my real dad)... so yeah... But, I'm trying to forget about all that was said. My mom really wants me too... and I will for the sake of normalcy, and bc I don't want to lose them as a part of my life. Anyway... so yes, the glass is half full, and all is well again... Though I anticipate another conversation sometime between now and July, in which my stepfather will enquire about our plans as a bireligious couple. Which I am prepared to answer and am confident about... We really have covered our bases, me and Ryan that is... we can talk about anything and everything... and we do...

Though, Marie's blog got me thinking about how he would feel if I went to a strip club. I don't think I'd find it enjoyable either. Girls just don't get as excited at guys taking off their clothes... especially their underwear... unless it's our men... and then we are more likely to aid in the process...

Anyway... so I dunno what my friends are gonna do for my bachelorette party, but they're already talking about it... But, the only one Ryan has to really worry about is Jade, because Lisa is this timid Catholic girl, though it sooo doesn't seem that way. She blushes when someone says moist... it's really funny... In Argentina the bride and groom get one party together, and the friends just make a fool out of them. We are in the States though...

In other news, my cousin Carla gets married on August 11th... and Gisella is turning 30 next year... so it'll be two months of parties!

It's so weird not seeing Ryan everyday. Ok, not that it's weird, but I really miss him... It's so hard to say goodbye at night... I'm so silly sometimes, you know? I just have to be a little bit less selfish and stronger and stuff... Oh well, that'll never happen... But, in a year or so, we'll be living together, so it'll be cool...

Anyways,

That's all for now...

G