Stressed out..

Hi...
So, yeah, I was fine... and about 20min ago, after I ate and relaxed a bit, I got totally tense...

It's been a really long day...

So, I wake up at 6am to talk to sweet Ryan... to find out he had had a miserable day because of this email I sent him, sharing this weird experience after the research symposium... which I don't want to delve into... so, I'm trying to get him to get rid of his horrible impression of me... (ah, the sound of ambulances in the background..) trying to make him remember how much I love him, and how I would never do anything to hurt him, not knowingly anyways. I just can't get into this right now... probably should just drop it anyways... water under the bridge, as ryan says..

and then... I find out about these explosions, which are thought to be terrorist attacks... here in London... one of them three stops from where I'm at..
I just feel a bit disconcerted and sad... I dunno, it's really weird... I'm just so tired and fragile right now... I can't really stand much...
It was so.... I called Ryan and he seemed so concerned on the phone... so scared, I guess. Which, is totally understandable... because the thought of losing him is too much for me to bear at any moment... He didn't go into work until like 10 (left his house at 9am)... which means he was distraught...and I was ok... not even really near anything... but close enough I guess... So, maybe tomorrow I'll be able to talk more about it... I thought it would be cathartic to write it... but I'm just so confused and tired... and trying to relax right now... Had to leave the kitchen and rest a bit, though they were watching almost famous... I just couldn't handle anything.
It was really odd.. More so because I was fine until then.


Yeah, so here's some idea of what the distances between the explosions and where I'm at are... So, they were all across the Thames River...

Anyway, feeling a bit more relaxed now...... So yeah, adventures in England...

I'll write more another day.

Until then.....

Cheers!

G